Why don't I post much?

Life Update: A Draft from August 12th

So, here’s a look at what’s been happening in my life lately. In short? Nothing. But if I have to elaborate on that "nothing," I’m sure I can find something worth sharing.

We’re well into 2026 now, and my main plan is to leave my current city and settle somewhere else (though I’ve yet to decide exactly where). I have so many things I want to do after May 3rd, which is the day of my big exam: NEET. For those who don’t know, cracking this exam is my ticket into medical college and my simplest path out of this city.

If someone asked for my primary motivation, I’d be honest: it’s the chance to live life on my own terms. I want a life where the struggles are mine and the consequences are mine, too. I’m not a fan of living under a mountain of burdens. I believe there’s a very fine line between "burden" and "responsibility"—what feels like a weight to me might seem like a "sweet responsibility" to someone else. But for now, I’m moving on, even if it means leaving behind things I’ve labeled as burdens. That’s just how I’ve always been, though I wouldn't necessarily recommend it to anyone else.

Anyway, enough of that. I’m thinking of returning to my other blog to write poems and short stories again. These are the things that make me feel alive: writing, reading, learning, speaking, and the company of genuine humans (and animals).

As for why I haven’t been posting? The simple answer is laziness. I’ve been watching anime, seeing movies, and reading books, but I just didn't care enough to post. Being inactive for a few months made writing feel less "magnetic."

However, I want to thank everyone who kept asking for updates and encouraged me to keep writing. One day, the world will acknowledge my work, but for those of you who acknowledge me now, I have deep gratitude. I’ll go down with my sword in hand, trying until my last breath. And if the results go in my favor? Don't be surprised. Just come to me and say, "I knew you could."